Pain pain, pain, never has so much been crammed into one word. The pain of depression feels terrifying. Your world is dark, heavy and painful physical pain. You think, would be much better. At least that pain could be localized.
Instead, depression seems to go to your very soul, affecting everything in this path dead, but walking is one way to describe it. You feel numb. Perhaps the worst part is that you remember when you actually felt something and the contrast between then and now just makes the pain worse, , so many things about your life are difficult right now things you used to take for granted a good night's sleep. Having goals looking forward to the future, now they seem beyond your reach. Your relationships are also affected.
The people who love you are also looking for some emotional response from you, but you don't have one to give it help to know that you're not alone. These days, depression affects as much as 25 of the population, although it has always been a human problem. No one really knows why, but what Christians do know is that God is not silent. When we suffer on every page of scripture, God's depressed children have been able to find hope and a reason to endure. For example, take 2nd Corinthians chapter 4 verses 16 to 18,
16 Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer person is decaying, yet our inner person is being renewed day by day. 17 For our momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, 18 while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
After all, God is powerful enough to end your suffering, but he hasn't. If you start there, you reach a dead end pretty quickly. God hasn't promised to explain everything about what he does and what he allows. Instead, he encourages us to start with Jesus. Jesus is God the son, and he is certainly loved by his heavenly father. Yet jesus also went through more suffering than anyone who ever lived here.
We see that love and suffering can coexist, and when you start reading the Bible and encounter people like Jacob, Jeremiah and the Apostle Paul, you get a sense that suffering is actually the well-worn path for God's favorites, though this doesn't answer the question. Why are you doing this to me, but it cushions the blow when you know that God understands that you're, not alone. If we know anything about God, we know that he comes close to those who suffer so keep your eyes open for him. And let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.