Be A Game Changer: We Encourage Women Wednesday 11/11

I had to redirect, Yah wants something different this time so I will be obedient. I am being cut tonight so if I sound a little hurt that is a definite reason. The Holy Ghost is really cutting my flesh yall! I am sitting here in my bedroom in all of my self-righteousness and false justification. I have to be honest so that I can really allow this to flow so if you’re easily offended, scroll on by. I tend to get hardcore here. I feel free enough to do that, I guess. I am not sure how to work this intro so let’s just hop in: I left a ministry back in March of this year. I was going to church pretty regularly and it seems like every Sunday morning gave me chest pains and panic attacks and Tuesday night praise team rehearsals were the absolute WORST. I cried once a day and I really was spiritually going through it. I learned more about my own spiritual gifts more than anything while attended there but anyways, my former pastor is an open heart, He trusts with his heart rather than jumping into discernment and deciding after putting forth some thought, he is just really sweet like that I guess. That open and trusting nature got him in trouble. He invited a demonic presence into a leadership position and “she” ransacked the entire ministry but that was an allusion to what she was doing behind the scenes. She activated demonic activity with the congregation. In the midst of all that happening, people were leaving it was a mess, and I eventually left when the damage became irreparable. My family was hurt and I knew if my children were feeling the heat from the fire hurled at me, it’s time to go. 

 Because of that heat, I ended up feeling justified, ended up becoming arrogant in my leaving because I was asked to come back, and honestly, I didn’t feel like I should have gone back. I will say that Yah confirmed that I didn’t need to be there but the manner in which I left, the attitude I had, the false sense of entitlement as if I am owed something for experiencing church hurt. The truth is I was wrong. I left wrong and I am being convicted for it. I felt like I was above being apart of a church because I am too spiritual and too different and too deep. What I failed to realize is that if my depth causes me to stumble then no one is in my way but me.  I was once told by my mother that my intelligence can be my undoing. In this case, she was right. I thought my intelligence superseded what God wanted me to see or even the humbling processes of making a clean exit. I thought I could think my way out and justify it by thinking. Truth is I needed to be pastored but not the way he wanted to go about it, allowing his sheep to be overtaken. Truth is my spirituality was rooted in arrogance and my faith was actually in me instead of Yah. I couldn’t be trusted to be communicated with because I was thinking I was justified in trying to outthink Him.

 Takeaway: Don’t be that girl who gets hurt and gets arrogant. Yah cannot talk to you in that manner, because in that state our minds cannot grasp what He is saying in the spirit and since His ways are higher, we cannot contain what he is trying to give us when we are dwelling outside of the spirit realms. Ladies, we cannot fail. We are too close to glory so we cant squander our time on earth dwelling on earthly stupidity. Keep your mind on things above, always strive to be like Yah, you will not fail. Admit when you are your problem, repent, surrender, He will direct your path.

1 Corinthians 3:1-4

However, brothers and sisters, I could not talk to you as to spiritual people, but [only] as to [a]worldly people [dominated by human nature], mere infants [in the new life] in Christ! 2 I fed you with milk, not solid food; for you were not yet able to receive it. Even now you are still not ready. 3 You are still [b]worldly [controlled by ordinary impulses, the sinful capacity]. For as long as there is jealousy and strife and discord among you, are you not [c]unspiritual, and are you not walking like ordinary men [unchanged by faith]? 4 For when one of you says, “I am [a disciple] of Paul,” and another, “I am [a disciple] of Apollos,” are you not [proving yourselves unchanged, just] ordinary people?



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Jacqui Hampton is a columnist, poet, and editor. She is a minister of music and psalmist and educator. She is an author of the book The Cultural Christian: Navigating The Culture While Contending For The Faith (2020) She currently devotes her time to songwriting for other artists and planning for her next book as well as educating the masses.

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  • Sometimes we allow ourselves to think we are more than what we are. But we are human and that's apart of being human. What is important is we correct it. Another good read

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